one year on...

With the rate of responses/entries to this blog, sometimes I do wonder if anyone actually knows of its existence. But I saw some 26ths today and they remarked about my entries in the blog so at least I know that there are still people around who reads my nonsense :>

A week on a year ago, I was at pre-departure/Uk bound at Suntec city. Unfamiliar faces of the seniors, new freshers, or just generally people going to UK from all over, boring talks, freebies up for grabs... and I know I am about to move on to a new big stage of life, where everything will be so different from the comfort of the council rm ( which till this day, has thankfully retained its charm :)

After UK bound that day, I went for rag day! it's nice to be a crasher, seeing people that I always see and feeling happy about seeing them. some councilors and ppl i know were involved in medicine dance so it was quite funny seeing them all painted up etc. ended off e day with taking pictures with soem of them..

In the blink of an eye, a year has passed

I went for UK bound today, as a more experienced 2nd-year-to-be, with my 35 copies of the freshers guide to oxford. seeing people coming up, introducing themselves, asking the funniest qns, trying to be as frenly and nice as i possibly could, playing a fool and rating the girls (:P). Not much has changed, has it?

I doubt e 25ths can ever expect another Josie-planned-trip to Tioman, that's one thing for sure. All the enthusiasm about organizing council gatherings, about mass meeting ups, soccer games, begging ppl to turn up, lol, i m afraid I don't have much of that left. Maybe it';s because I am tired, maybe because I am sian, or maybe because I have lost the passion. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing the 25ths on makan noobs two, altho e driving was quite tiring. I am looking forward to charles or gh organizing another gathering when I m back in a week's time. I enjoyed my soccer game and couldnt stop laughing when gh smashed the ball against the post at least 5 times. all these moments will always be special to me :)

but somehow, mabe I am resigned, resigned to the fact that many ppl have moved on in life, and when ppl move on in life, things of the past become memories, beautiful memories, but no more than that, not smthing tt they hope to retain and make it seem as though nothing's changed, tt life is as it was, outside the council rm in e mornings where everyone gathers for a nice chat before going to class, outside the council rm again in the afternn after sch where we do random things there..

Perhaps i was too free over the 10 mths of break, that I tried to act as though leaving JC jus means a physical separation from school.

1 year on, I know that my friends have moved on iin life, without me, and I should move on in life, and stop looking back to the past... because i did throughout my time there, as much as I could, with the emails back, and now i realize, i prob wont have e energy to sustain that, or that all tt is left of council, is a gathering once in a while, when I am back hopefully :)

hao2 ma3 bu4 chi1 hui2 tou2 chao3

perhaps not the right way to use the chinese phrase, but it's time to move on, and I think i have... but as ur welfare head (:P), wherever u r, if u r feeling down, welfare's here for u! :)